I know, you pictured this moment for years, excited about the day and there you are in the stands watching your child receive their High School diploma. Moments come rushing back to you. Times of big hugs, playing in sandboxes, learning how to ride a bike. It’s like planting a seed and watching it grow for 18 years.
This is that bittersweet moment, yours forever and gone the next day. Your child to which you attended their sporting events, went to their music concerts, helped them with homework, fretted over big school projects like science fairs and school plays, dressed them up for special occasions and took them to the doctors when they were ill. You were scared yourself when they had that 102 degree fever.
All those memories so precious now, some sad, some joyful and some angry too, you wish you could relive them all of sudden, but you can’t. You hope and pray they will be safe in the world. You did the best you could do. Now this wonderful moment you should be going through, you didn’t realize it would come with a price. You didn’t know how it would feel.
Like most life changing moments, they are both happy and sad all at once which makes them all the more difficult to experience without anxiety. Your children are onto a new life, new beginnings without you. For a few years, they will seem independent, you will look at old photos on your walls and wonder where time went.
This is the hardest part, after they have left, your home is different, someone is missing. The bathroom is so much neater, not so many dirty dishes in the sink anymore and you wonder why that stuff bothered you so much. It seems so unimportant now.
But not to fret to much moms of new high school graduates – in 4 years or less in some cases, they will be back and the bittersweet to that is in that time you will have moved on yourself. You will have adapted to your new life and will say to them “Your back, already ?”. This time though, you will look at their dirty dishes in sink with no regrets !